Darkness
The emotional dust was settling,
the perspective adjusting,
shame subsiding,
the lies retreating,
fear releasing,
body calming,
mind slowing,
heart resting.
I had just watched me being crazy,
captive, crushed, ground and collapsed…
turning to familiar places fatal.
The nemesis out of her nest,
shaking the shame finger at me,
removing splinters with an ice pick.
Stirring, stalking, streaming
the oh so familiar exposure,
the core wound
at the heart of being me,
never completely gone,
ever waiting for that moment to strangle the very life from any respite or joy.
The pozer exposed…at last!
“Thus sayeth the raven – nevermore.”
Watching me now watching me,
powerless and stupid to love and truth.
Emptying the vessel of hope,
fingernails clawing but unable to stop the slide into hopelessness and pity.
Just wishing the bottom close.
When will I die?
Oh great illusion of my separation.
Sin of sins the KING.
Fasting, aching, silent retreat,
pushing, running feeling defeat.
Let the monster arrive,
fully dressed in pride.
Made up and stark,
so powerful and dark.
I meet Kelsey in this place,
‘twas here that day so awful – Awful grace – when peace did come,
so low, so heavy, so radically oppressed.
I can’t escape,
but look I must
for freedom from this dire thrust
to places free from devil dust, lust and load and locked.
Death, the only option seemed so clear.
I’ll get there now
I cannot trust the God of awful grace.
My friend will welcome me when life is done
with nothing holding my head down.
The waters deep I can’t escape
now breath so free
once shackles loosed about my broken heart at last.
The pain is gone, I’m free again!!!
The channel spoke this piece so dark.
pain subsides
new light abides.
things wiped clean, complete release.
Process the pain in stillness now
don’t numb the centers in deceit.
Embrace the shame,
it’s here today.
My friend I love the dance we do
so often now
but less then when
I could never be for even a moment
now set free.
We’ll meet again I’m sure
but let the love we have for each other
be a light for others in this same dark place
where we can meet and share defeat.
From this will rise a new sung song
free from ideals strong
but strangle held in places wrong.
The thing I do
is let this be my friend
for bits of time
to mourn the loss of one so sweet
I cannot the depth of loss perceive
but rise now clean my vision clear
my child dear
………………….no longer here.
We visit now but once this year
and set it down for most the rest
to touch our hearts in love the best.
You’re always here with me my kid,
‘tis here that healing benefits
And blesses life and lives with love
Connected in the now,
the present presence of heaven found.
Join me here.
congregation. However the death of both her mother and her daughter led her to look for a different level of connection to what she gained from her weekend religious activities. Through LISN membership Annabel found inspiration from others who have had similar losses, and who were nearby.
Ethelia is lonely, new to her new village, and with specific spiritual interests which could be called ‘mystic’. Her country does not permit views contrary to the national religion. Ethelia longs for people to explore questions and inspiration with, and finds LISN.
anyone else knowing what they are. He likes that.
He joined LISN and then discovered he can also upload his entire cohort of parishioners as users, so that they are part of the membership of LISN, but specifically assigned to his care group.
He had recently found a number of small groups existed that he did not know about. His attempts to get people to let him know had not worked, probably because things were constantly changing and there was no online method for people to update their own connections.
She looked online and found lots of offerings but no indication if they would match what she was looking for. By registering and defining membership with LISN she was able to define her own spiritual expectations in a fun way, and in doing so the list of local Spiritual Directors was somehow narrowed down to those who matched her needs and style. She loved not having to research a whole lot of options and found it easy to choose one that works well with her spirit.
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